Life Update....

Ohhh man have I neglected this blog....I've just been so busy with things and not really in the mood to be blogging...oh where do I start?

I guess I will start with my Dad...the last round of chemo did not work either and they told us there was nothing else they could do because the leukemia was immune to the chemo and was too strong..they said he would only have a few weeks or months to live....this was about a month ago...

This made me feel more depressed than ever....everyday I would space out and cry and not even be able to think straight.  This is not what my Dad wanted..he wants to just be happy...Thankfully I had a regular doctors appointment and she knew the whole situation and asked if I wanted a prescription to help.  I said yes, and thankfully I did....I was always scared to take something like that but I am feeling much much better and glad that I did.  I feel normal now... Not masking the sadness but being able to deal a little better..

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He is home as of right now.  Some days are better than others but each day he seems to be getting stronger from the pneumonia clearing up and his counts recovering from the chemo.  We did have to go back to the hospital for a few days last week because he had extreme pain in his tummy, at least that was an easy fix and things were just a little backed up...I won't go into detail...
For some reason the blasts (which is the leukemia) goes up and down, we are not sure what that means but I think it is making him stable...he does need blood every once and awhile but to be honest he acts and seems better than he has in awhile.. He eats normally now and can walk around the house without having to sit down in between a few steps.

A few days ago we got a call from the doctors that there is a clinical trial in Boston for my Dad.  We are very hopeful but don't know what it entails yet.  The consultation is the 24th and we have our
fingers crossed!

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Lets see what did I do this month?...Oh! the Fair!  Me and Matt went to go to the local fair.  It was nice to do something fun and normal for once..
  It's been the same thing since I was a kid but for some reason I always get excited to go!

We fed a bunch of animals :)

Basically we just walked around and ate a lot of super yummy food.  We shared everything.  First we had the most delicious pulled pork I ever had from a local guy that has his own business and huge smoker.  Then we got some periogies at a polish hut (YUM)...and then went back to the BBQ stand and tried some brisket.  Then for dessert we got fried dough with maple butter on it....yummmmm.  I bought a candy apple and shared it with my sister the next day.

Something else sad happened...

Last week one of my best friends dad passed away unexpectedly.  This was a huge shock because he had a heart attack out of the blue.  It was very sad and made me think of how hard it is to lose a parent and that everything she is going through I understand..

The same friend just had her new second baby boy last night.  It's kind of perfect timing to keep her and her family occupied to think of the good things in life and not the bad. I am very excited to meet him tonight!

Hmmm what else?......work.... I am finishing up at my job and thankfully my boss from the Country Club is amazing and wants me to help with event planning at the restaurant!  I am so thankful for him so that I don't have to take time to look for another job right now.  This transition will probably happen at the end of September..

I bought the Sims 4 the day it came out....I have been a Sims fan since the day the first Sims came out.  I enjoy playing it for endless hours haha...Although I think my Sim game high has come to an end.  There's not much you can do after you build a house, get married, have a kid... I feel bad when my Sims get old so I stop playing before that happens lol

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My favorite season is approaching and that means I gotta get started planning a Halloween costume.  I take Halloween very seriously and LOVE to dress up!  I believe there will be a party at the country club where I work and I can't wait! I also can't wait for Halloween movies!! EEK It makes me so excited..

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I am thankful that even though there is so much sad in my life right now that there is some happiness and hopefulness too.  I just hope that things take a turn for the better now instead of always being so down and sad.

Thank you for listening to my super long post and life update...

"Just Keep Swimming"